OH DAD!

I don't know why I even try. I know that you are never going to be here. I don't know why I think you will change and someday keep your word to me.
You've tought me not to get my hopes up. Not to believe in anything. You BROKE me! My trust has been given away to nothing.
I will never know how it feels to have a dad. I will never be able to say that I had a hero. I needed you through some of my hardest times in my life.
Somenights I stay up and wonder how you feel about missing my life. Do you even care? How often do you think about me? I'm an adult now, I don't need you for anything anymore. Does that eat you up inside? I feel like your forgotten child. You never come to visit, you never call.
I wish I could have been "daddys little girl" and I wish I could have asked you for money when I just wanted to go shopping. But I never will.
AND after all of the heartach and the dissapointments you put me through..I still can't hate you. I still can't blame YOU.